Finding time to sit down and write about life when life is happening all around me is becoming increasingly difficult.
Since I last posted about Emery’s birthday, another birthday happened! Cecilia Grace was born May 17th, 2013. We are totally in love. It has been such a crazy transition, but we’re all pushing through it and it’s getting better every day.
Cecilia Grace: May 17th, 2013 born at 2:41 p.m, weighing 7lbs 6.5 oz (only 1 oz smaller than Emery) 19in long -although, a couple days later at a weight check Celia measured 21 in long. I don’t think that they had her stretched out all the way in the hospital. She has the most perfect features and the most ridiculous head of brunette hair, I adore it.
|Just an hour old.|
Life as we know it around the Jennings’ household has changed. In the hospital after I had Cecilia and family went home and I had time to think I had a mini panic attack. I was absolutely exhausted from the events leading up to this beautiful girl’s arrival and the baby in the room next to us was screaming and I absolutely lost it. I was worried I couldn’t take care of two babies, I missed the little boy at home who didn’t really understand all that was going on, and the hospital staff really sucked. Breastfeeding was hard, harder than I remembered, and the lactation consultant kept telling me “breast is best”.
|The first man you’ll ever love.|
Colby was doing the best he could to convince me that I was just exhausted and to get some sleep, but Cecilia wouldn’t sleep and therefore, I couldn’t sleep. By the time it was all said and done I had been up more than 36 hours and was at my absolute breaking point. At one point during the day I was in the bathroom shower sitting in the corner vomiting and bawling all at the same time. Thank God for mom’s. My mom came the next morning and sat with me in that bathroom and talked me off the proverbial ledge.
|First family photo. Your brother looks concerned.|
When we left that hospital and the apathetic nurses and came home that next day I felt so much better. I was so uncomfortable in the hospital. I needed to have my own space, food, bed, and comfort. I came home and ate an entire container of watermelon and we made it through our first night at home fairly well. Colby’s parents took Emery for the weekend so we could focus on trying to sleep. Turns out, this little girl is nothing like her big brother when it came to sleeping. She actually likes to sleep. I needed this- I deserve this. Emery woke up at least every 2 hours until he was 14 months old. Cecilia lets me get in the occasional 4 hour stretch and just the other day at 7 weeks old she let me sleep from 10:30-5:15 in the morning!!
|This is what mommy looks like after a whirlwind labor.|
Right now sweet baby Cecilia is sleeping in her swing and big brother is asleep in his room while I take time out to recall things that have happened these past 7 weeks. I won’t type out the birth story tonight, but that will come soon. Right now I’m just enjoying my sweet little family of four and feeling more confident that I am capable of juggling two babies and still maintaining part of myself in the process. Motherhood is the hardest job I’ve ever had, but it’s also been the best job I’ve ever had.
Thanks for picking me to be your mommy.